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There’s no rhyme or reason to the timing of it and it also doesn’t last very long – just enough to freak me out. I’ve also been serenaded while sitting in my chair reading. Occasionally I’ll hear it when I go to bed and the house is otherwise very quiet. ![]() It doesn’t happen every day or at a predictable time of day. This has only happened since I moved into this house. There is also a voice – a man’s – but the words are indistinct. There was always the fear that I was losing it – maybe it was a symptom of dementia or just evidence that my synapses were firing in the wrong direction.Įvery now and then I hear music. In fact, this is something I haven’t mentioned to a single living soul. There is, however, something I’ve never told you. Everything from the state of the world to the minutiae of my life. ![]() But I wouldn’t have just lost time, I’d’ve completely fabricated ridiculously intricate memories of conceptualizing, programming, testing, troubleshooting, and finishing two major pieces of code.I realize that I’ve shared big and small thoughts on these posts. When I got home from work today, my last memory before waking up curled in a ball on the bed was getting ready to go and take out the recycling- when I woke up, the recycling was still here, but I was dressed and ready to go, and it was two hours later. I’ve been going through dayquil like it was soda, and I’ve been so cold lately, I’m pretty sure I have at least a minor fever. I’ve been pretty sick the last week or so especially over the last three days. The only other option is that I made the whole thing up. #I REMEMBER I REMEMBER WHEN I LOST MY MIND WINDOWS#I can’t imagine that windows would have done any restore-point nonsense without informing me of it when I turned my computer back on. But Torque won’t actually compile and run anything without saving, so there was no way I could have tested everything without saving my progress. The power also went out a few days ago, and I thought that maybe I’d left everything up without saving and just lost my progress. And there was nothing in the recycle bin from my game that was dated since December 16th. At first I thought maybe I’d deleted the other files and overwritten them with the ones from the thumb drive (essentially reverting to my last version), which is still a possibility, except that whenever I do that, I actually delete them, not just overwrite them. ![]() When I brought my files to work yesterday to work on them, I thought I’d just forgotten to drag the folder onto the thumb drive, since I was operating off of my “last version.” But when I got home, I couldn’t find anything to show that I’d ever done any work at all. And the next day, when I decided it was time to start working on a parallax scrolling background to go in front of the sky, and spending forever making one and the after hours programming it in so it looked good, realizing that I’d forgotten to shade it like I did the sky-background to show nighttime, and then just dragging it out of the field of view until I could fix it. I can distinctly remember the issues I had troubleshooting it when it didn’t work, and calling it all good when I finally got it, because it was getting close to night time and I’d work on the rest the next day. #I REMEMBER I REMEMBER WHEN I LOST MY MIND CODE#I have extremely distinct memories of adding in code to make it so that the enemies would take damage and bounce off of fire objects, and I remember planning on adding an “on fire” animation to the list of things to do. I can find no evidence that the last three days of programming haven’t all occurred inside my head. ![]()
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